NEET and Singapore

Man, I am so sick of people gaslighting about what to do. I work in retail, a company call Fossil. Weird name. I know. So, what happened today is, I was serving a customer, two guys, 1 father and 1 mother(which came later). At first, I showed them where the men's watches were, and told them what watches there are. Classic. Sports. Rugged. Automatic. Then they asked me which ones are the 'latest in line of collection'. Look here pal, what the hell do you mean by 'latest in line or collection', why can't you just say, "which are the latest watches?". But to be fair, I do not know the answer, I am just a part-timer, my wages are lower than a full time cleaner. And my colleagues never told me which are the new line of products.  So like any insane person would do, my colleagues, blamed me for spreading or saying wrong information to the customers. It would be nice if they just stop me there and take over, but they decide to talk shit behind my back. Honest...

That's right people, nobody is hiring in singapore. You can have diploma or degree but you fail at communication, nobody will hire you. It's been weeks since I've graduated from Republic Polytechnic (RP). I have made this post out of sheer frustration and hatred at the school. The reasons are pretty simple. Take note that my school is beautiful, the environment is beautiful and the facilitators are all nice but... most of them are very bashful and would rather give you a D grade or B grade without telling you anything.  I am not sure what is the point of B grade and D grade here, we all know that all singaporean high school graduates are aiming for a degree or after polytechnic they are going to find a nice job, have a great career, make singapore great again. But honestly, after 3 years of studying here, I feel like I have just wasted 3 years of my life here. There are many reasons that make me came to this conclusion, please continue reading, and drop out if you find this...

FML man. All my life, I been following my brother's shadow, they were all better than me, their grades were better, their CCA was better. Everything. I try not to compare myself with them, but it's worthless. You want to know why? On Nov 2, 2024, I was last working retail assistant and foodpanda, after a long day of work: 8 hours + 3 hours of food delivery, I decide that it's time to film some video game porn, because, why wouldn't I? Now it's not about masturbation or edging, it's about archiving porn! Porn is hard to archive, believe it all not, old porn gets deleted, or they are bad quality. I make it my decision(dunno why) to film pornography. Now this was fun and all, I wasn't even enjoying the porn I was filming, because they are old content, not worth jacking off honestly. But my idiot brother decide to open the door and see what I am doing. And of course he saw the everything on the monitor and everything. I dunno what compelled him to do this. Sure,...